I'm blogging

Perhaps I should get a journal and that would satisfy the need to articulate myself through a blog or facebook. I tossed all of the journals I had (4 total) spanning the first 14 years of my life, maybe I need to begin my London chapter before it is too late. We'll see...

I am feeling extremely content lately although I now seem to have insomnia, this has lasted the past 6 nights. I would have thought starting my new exercise regime (every day this week!) and cutting out alcohol (well, Majorly decreasing it) would have me sleeping like a baby. Alas, there must be something troubling me. Maybe it is the worry of not having a job? I feel pretty at peace with that right now, my old place of work is having me interview for a different position next week which would be more money and seemingly more excitement. So, without too much effort doors seem to be opening. There are also SO many other positions just like the job I had available and with London work experience I feel pretty confident I could slide into one of those quite easily. Finding employment is not worrying me right now.

I suppose part of me is anxious that I'm not going to have many more chances to start over and pursue that mythical fulfilling job, where I can feel creative, passionate, challenged and beneficial to this whole thing. Soon there might be kids, mortages, roots! I can't be this self-involved much longer...AUGH. In one of Chris Rock's standup acts he says a job is something you do so that you can live your life, a career is something where you find there are not enough hours in the day to accomplish what you want to do. Right now their are not enough hours in my day, but that is because I am free to do what I want. Hmm...

Anyway, I'm waffling on. It is a beautiful fall morning, I have a cup of coffee and I am feeling good. It is too bad about the time difference, mornings make me miss my mom and I wish I could talk to her right now. Hi mom.

Unemployed in Summertime...

That is a good song by Emiliani Torrini, but it is only part true for me and since it is clearly fall...

So here I am, back where I started no job and no real idea of what I want to do. I am hoping for something that incites just a little bit of passion from me and doesn't leave me feeling regretful when some day I realize I have put my life's energy and time going down a path I never really intended to.

Right now the sun is shining, the leaves are changing and I don't even want to find a job. Sitting in an office all day sounds like the exact thing I should not be doing. I guess that is the thing, I realized my month long temp job had turned into 6 months and I hated it. Half a year of my life spent doing something I disliked, spending the majority of my time commuting and staring at a computer screen just didn't seem right. I know there is quite a few people who will think quitting a job without having another one lined up was completely irresponsible but I had to do something drastic. To make you feel a little better about what was a selfish choice, in between breaks of dream job searching and facebook stalking I am writing up notes for andrew. He dictates into his phone and I type it up, when I hear him come upstairs I quickly switch my computer screen back to his work stuff and try to look diligent, so it is pretty much a job.

So that's where I am right now. I signed up for a 10k in October, I am hoping that training for that will add some structure to my aimless days. Plus I have gained about 10 pounds since being married, ick! So it is a new season and I am forcing things to change, let's hope for the best. Any dream job suggestions welcome.

Wow, I posted again.

I am no longer tied to the computer like I used to be, thanks to stupid work, so I have not kept up to date with any of my electronic mail forums. Also, I found that although I got married and moved to London this did not create any more blog worthy moments for me. I really don't think people want to hear that I had a low key weekend where I did a yoga video in the basement, went to the farmer's market with Andrew and discovered that you can eat the leaves from a turnip(just boil in salt water, kind of kale or spinach esque). The best intentions to keep you entertained...
But, I joined a reading club and I needed to sign up for a blog to be a part of it, so I am back! Let the excitement ensue.

Trying this out...

I have become tied to my(Andrew's) computer as of late, constantly checking skype, facebook and gmail so that I can keep everyone as up to date as possible on my new life and move. This actually means I just read the heartfelt stories and inquiries from other people and file a reminder away in my head for when I can put some time in for a response. I never quite get to that clairvoyant moment when my energy and writing skills align to send the deserved response to my friends and families questions. Enter blog.
I am well aware that this makes me one of those self-important people who thinks people really care about what is going on in my life, but here I am anyway. So feel free to read, delete, laugh or judge, I know my mom will appreciate it...